Losing her

I feel and fear we are losing Bree. If not to the seizures or physically, emotionally. She's just laying there again. Not responding. I think she is withdrawing emotionally. She's hurting so bad inside she just can't deal with the outside world. She can't deal with the pain of her past anymore. And because the seizures are so bad now that the speech part of her brain is affected at times, she can't always find the words to say what she wants to say so she has problems talking about it. It's easier for her to write or type. But she wants and needs to talk about it sometimes. I really feel if she would just fully trust and open up to somebody.... her therapist, me, a sister, a friend, ANYONE then she can slowly work on healing. Maybe it would help with decreasing her seizures too. The doctor did say they could all be brought on by stress. She needs to get everything all out in the open. It's hard. It is so hard when your little girl is lying there and you can see how sad she is, in how much pain she is and you are begging her please talk to me. Please look at me. Please come back to me! And she doesn't. Lil Bee was able to get through to her some yesterday. At least get her up, get her to respond. But she is working, 7 to 7 today. Possibly her brain is shocked from 10, yes 10 seizures over night. But I see something more. I see a broken heart, a very sad lost little girl in there who is scared to death her abusive mother is coming after her.